Jeff, the girls, and I arrived at our summer camp on Sunday, April 22 having barely survived the trip from hell. I have left it to Jeff to write about those experiences as I don’t really wish to relive the experience. When he completes his documentation I’ll reblog. It took me two days in bed to decompress once here. Another couple days to begin to engage in life fully. And two days ago I went to Pin Tangle to see what the stitch for this week was.
I have over 30 six-inch squares of 14 count Aida cut. They were for Kissing Pillows, but I’ve slowed down on stitching them since there are fewer troops being shipped out (supposedly.) So what to do with all those extra squares?
I pulled out my Studio Journal, and sketched out the wheat ear stitch to get a feel for it. (I also ordered a tin of pencils of varying density to aide my sketching from Blick Art Supplies.) Then I did some doodles beginning with a small sketch of a wisteria tree. It was a little too fiddley for me to get into so I started putting some lines in a square. Yup, a six-inch square.
Then I saw a zipper that I had salvaged from one of Jeff’s favorite sweat shirts that was no longer wearable, one of the mindless tasks I did while I was restlessly trying to put the trip behind me. I liked the zipper a lot. The pull is kind of cool and has a nice feel to it, a nice weight and shape. A little different. People are doing cool things with zippers these days. I wanted to do something cool with a zipper.
I also need to have get some brightness, so lively color in my hands, in my heart. So much so that I made Bar Sugar Cookies just to play with sprinkles!
I pulled out the brightest variegated DMC floss I had. I was being lazy, my first thought was to use Caron’s Cranberry Water Lilies, my favorite Caron color—well, one of them anyways! But that would mean I had to get up and dig in the overhead storage to pull it out. I had my box of DMC 000 – 500 at my side. So I went kind of random.
My doodles included lime green, orange, fuchsia, red, purple. You’ll see some of those colors in the beginning of my new baby, The TAST 2012 Quilt! Block One is not done yet, as you can see. I’ll show it to you when it’s done, too. And you’ll see the other limbs of this new baby as they develop. Since TAST will most likely run over into January, this baby has the traditional nine months to go. I’m sure there will be additional development once delivered!
I’m thinking there will be a theme tin addition to TAST with this project. Something regarding attachments. For me Dark Nights of the Soul often involve my relationship to attachments and loss. This trip from hell involved the possibility of loosing our home and the ability to fulfill our dreams. We were also in life threatening situations a couple of times. We had to spend everything we’d saved to live on for the rest of the year to make it home. And my special puppy who I’m very attached to started with the symptoms that have erupted into a horrid flu-like illness that she is currently struggling with.
I have learned that such situations are part of the cycle of life and also the creative cycle. Just as wild fires clear the brush to allow for new growth, human life crises lead to a kind of soul cleansing making room for new ideas, new vision, and a heart that is more open and available to input. Humans are creative beings unless we get bogged down with minutia rather than process, routine as opposed to ritual, and habit instead of awareness and engagement. Sometimes it takes a lot to clear out those barriers to be free to create. Whatever gets us to that place is a blessing. That is what I have experienced so that is what I believe!
What do you think? What frees you to be creative?